R: Of course is the Self the most intimate consciousness there is, far more than any indirect experience of senses, body, and mind. And IT is already ours while sensory experience involves a lot of desire, pain, and frustrations. The term SELF was used by Bhagavan to indicate this. He used many other words as well like adhistana, essence, hridayam, heart.
Friend: I’m sober now. I have been a heavy drug user most of my life and through self-inquiry and surrender, I’m 3 weeks clean. But I feel like I’m barely touching the depths of what I truly am but I’m in love with remaining in the center of the I - it feels safe. My mind still gets drawn out continuously but I’m getting better at it.
A friend writes: "I always read with pleasure and high interest in your blog to keep up the connection, the memory in the spiritual sense. One article particularly occupies me at the moment, which is actually always topical and important, because Vedanta quintessence. Namely the one titled "A struggle is inevitable". One can really only say thank you for it here. . When I now look at my life and especially my daily thought movements, habits, but also consumption addictions etc. and experience...
Q: Many times when I try to do self-inquiry, I try to reach the ‘I’ asking myself ‘who am I?’, or stating ‘I am’.
But many times there's another question popping into the head: who's asking? I can hear/feel the voice in my head asking the questions.
Also many times, I keep asking but my mind keeps being distracted.
What would you suggest? And who is asking?
R: That shows you are still too intellectual with it. First do any samadhi meditation, any calming which you surely know.
By greater and more steadfast practice of abiding in this existence-consciousness, we will experience that this state seems to come often and take possession of us of its own accord whenever we are free from our daily work. Since this state of existence-consciousness is in fact nothing but 'we', it is wrong to think that such a state comes and takes possession of us!
I find the following quote to be a valuable addition to the well-known teachings. Some authors are fond to merely quote Paul Brunton who reported Sri Ramana saying that a separate spiritual practice is only for the merest spiritual novice. That is at least one-sided, in my experience. A subtle and concentrated silent state reached much more easily during sitting meditation seems a wonderful asset for inquiry. Of course this should expand and penetrate all our daily active life as well.